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Unaware of what was occurring both within him and without. Zipporah, his wife, was
aware. Miriam was aware.
A wife provides her husband with a bridge to the outside world—helping him become
externally aware—and helping him express the awareness deep inside himself. Eve took
Adam out of himself by feeding him the forbidden fruit, uprooting him from his internal
state of perfectly cleaving to Hashem, exposing him to awareness.
The Bible attributes prophecy to three individuals: David, Avraham and Moses. David
said: "But I am a worm, not a man"(Psalms 22:7). Avraham said: "But I am dust and
ashes"(Gen 18:27). Moses said: "for what are we …"(Ex 16:8)
Ranking Moses in terms of his humility, the Torah writes: "And the man, Moses, was the
humblest of any person on the face of the earth"(Numbers 12:3). The different types of
humility reflect fundamentally different levels in humility's definition. The perfectly
humble individual is completely oblivious to the Ego, external and internal to himself. A
humble individual by definition is unaware of his humility, and those around him also fail
to recognize it. He does not possess an awareness of himself and his environment as
objective realities, characterized by their own laws and rules of behavior. For him, all of
reality is a divine phenomenon arrived at solely via an awakening from above. He fails to
realize that the human initiative required to awaken this divine effluence is to be found in
awareness and recognition, and is expressed by questions probing the fundamental nature
of existence; this is the positive face of Descartes' question—a question otherwise
manifesting the ugly apex of humanity's pride, suggesting that anything which does not
pass the test of human awareness, does not exist.
Moses embodies the
opposite approach. For Moses reality is only an opportunity to
formulate and bestir man's awareness of the need to question and
search for the kernel of divine presence that, ultimately,
appears irrespective of man's quest; man's aid is not
really necessary. When Moses built the Mishkan, Hashem had
to show him figures made out of fire; models of the
Mishkan's
instruments created by Hashem which Moses only
seems to bring to life. Thus, Moses viewed reality exclusively as raw material. Man must
simply endow it with meaning and using his own talents shape it, in the presence of the
Divine.
For this reason, we pray to the G-d of Avraham, not the G-d of Moses, because it is
difficult for man to relate to reality as an absolute presence. Avraham asked for the bare
necessities: "And I am childless…"(Gen 15:2); "Whereby shall I know that I shall inherit
it?"(Gen 15:8) Yaakov's requests that his basic, physical needs be met were even more
detailed: "And He will give me bread to eat …"(Gen 28:20) Judaism adopts the approach
of sanctifying matter by recognizing man's physical needs. For this reason, we mention
the forefathers. David makes all sorts of requests concerning his continued physical
existence, ones covering the entire range of human needs. An approach geared toward
every level of ability in relating to Hashem, one suitable for everyone. This approach
promises to sustain man's relationship with Hashem for an infinite number of years.
David, the king of Israel, is alive and well.
Moses knows that he does not need Yitro's tutelage; the explicit miracles of the Ark and
the pillar of cloud provided Moses with enough guidance. Moses requests "and you shall
be as eyes for us"(Num 10:31); he wants Yitro to tell the world about a life style based
upon a sanctified reality, one requiring absolutely no aid from the natural order. Yitro
refuses for he finds it difficult to comprehend such an artificial existence, divorced
completely from the world of matter.
"The people took to seeking complaints"(Num
11:1): the people also had difficulty relating to reality on Moses'
level. The first time they complained, Hashem was angry and punished
them: "and it [the fire] consumed at the edge of the
encampment"(11:1). This first time, Moses did not express an
opinion, for he had not fully understood the people. He did not
realize that their complaining stemmed from their doubts regarding
the very possibility of taking this path, doubts regarding the very
principle itself. When the people complained about the manna—a form
of sustenance entirely in keeping with Moses' approach, a perfect
exemplar of it—they asked: Man hu?
(Ex 16:15), literally,
What is this?
Relating to even the most fundamental element of reality—eating—as beyond the natural
order of things, as connected to the question of "What does Hashem, your G-d, ask of
you?"
"Man
hu
?" A situation that can only become reality when man endows reality with his
internal quality. A situation in which the food has no intrinsic characteristics. Human
beings who were not on Moses' level, even the simplest among them, could relate to this
foodstuff within the scope of their own realities, as onions and garlic gloves.
Moses complains, "Where shall I find meat for them?"(13:11), and has difficulty carrying
them in his arms. Moses refuses to pass up on this opportunity and forsake what he
perceives to be the absolute, divine reality. He finds himself incapable of relating to a
reality that runs according to the natural laws of existence, inherently inferior to the
Divine existential rules. Moses does not have the capability to educate the people, step-
by-step, like children. He can only lead those who have already achieved a significant
level of Divine worship, who do not need to relate to Hashem via their natural, physical
needs.
Moses is unaware of his level. He believes his
path is eminently suitable for any human being on any level. Aharon
and Miriam also fail to recognize Moses' level, until Hashem,
Himself, in all His glory, reveals to them that only Moses
is allowed to be on this level
;
he is not having delusions of grandeur. However, in the parsha, Hashem taught that
Judaism can relate to and sanctify any reality, no matter what level it may be on; Moses
prefers to lead a nation of prophets: "Would that the entire people of Hashem could be
prophets"(11:29).
The story of the seventy elders who achieve prophecy through Moses' beneficence comes
to teach that Moses must descend to the level of the people—even if this means giving up
on his unique level—in order to benefit levels of Divine reality lower than his own.
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